Tuesday, January 5, 2010

The Challenge for 2010 and beyond...

Hello all to whoever may read this or even if no one reads this. I am setting out a new path for myself and 2010 is the year to do it! Over the years I have been battling with my weight and more recently health issues to go along with it. I am sick and tired of being overweight, feeling helpless, lost, not happy in my own body, and feeling physically and mentally exhausted. I am 26 years old and I feel as though I haven't lived or am capable to live the life I want or have dreamed of. I was always the kid in school that was always picked on, embarassed to exercise in gym class, too "fat" for sports, always the last person to have a boyfriend, etc. I am now 26 and have accomplished goals, but nothing I have really "dreamt" of doing. I have a wonderfuly husband, a great job, a home and the best family I could ask for. There is just one thing ultimately missing from my life--and that is the healthy and FIT me! In the last few years I have been having a few health problems that boils down to my excess of weight. I have tried every diet imaginable and nothing ever lasted long or "cured" my problem. Before I met my husband I did succeed with weight watchers and lost 50+ pounds and kept it off or maintained for 2 years. I met my husband shortly after those 2 years and was comfortable with everything in my life and gradually ate myself back to more than I weighed before pre-weight watchers and the most I have ever weighed. My weight is now a problem more than it ever has been. I feel I can not do things that normal people would do. I am out of breath running a short distance--I mean short <50 ft. to the mailbox, I feel like when I travel on airplanes I pray for no one to sit next to me fearing that I am taking over the other seat. It is completely uncomfortable. It is the simple things like this and I want those things to change. I dream of being one of those gym nazi's or an avid runner who participates in 5k, 10k+, marathon's, and triatholon's. I am sick of feeling lowsy, having no energy, doctor's prescribing me medicine that I may have to take forever, and not feeling healthy! My husband and I want to have children and the only thing that is holding us back is my weight because my doctor wants and told me that I have to lose weight in order to have kids in a healthy way. order to get the ball rolling and quit dragging my feet and making excuses all the time I am going to be serious this time. I am on weight watchers and I am going to start a program called the couch to 5k. It is gradual steps over 2 months that work you up to running solid for 30 min. One of my friends is going to accept the challenge with me. We will see how this goes. I also am going to try to at least to get to the gym 3x a week within the next month and gradually increase it as I go. I am going to succeed this time and make a lifestyle change for good! I am just going to pace myself and take baby steps. It could take me 1 year to 2 years to where I want to be. I have so many things to live for...a healthy life, children, my husband, and so much more! Today is a new day<--this will be my motto!

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